Saturday, May 31, 2008

Thank you!

to everyone that has acknowledged mum's passing + left messages for me.
and i just want to especially thank those that have sent me personal messages, cards + flowers.
Also to the ppl that I hardly know who have reached out to ask me how they can help.
I hope oneday I can return the kindness you have offered me during this time.
I've being blowen away by some very speical people who were there at the beginning when I found out mum had cancer, who have sent me constant emails, PM's, phoning + thinking of you cards. And some even cried with me. I felt you hold my hands + wipe my tears at times.
I feel truly truly blessed to know + have these girls in my life!!
You know who you are + THANK YOU!!

I know they say time is a healer + I do believe it is.
I could say I've being dealt a raw deal in the last few years to lose my brother tragically 7 yrs ago + now mum. But that's not how i see it.
I feel blessed + hououred that I was my mother's daughter.
A woman who had a lot of pride + lived through the loss of 2 of her children but still stayed strong.
A woman who had HUGE faith - I mean huge. Something that I just don't understand + even questioned her about it at different times in her life.
A LOVE for my dad that was amazing + took them through some trying times.
A woman who loved us kids fiercely + always forgave.
A 'Poppins' who loved her grandchildren with fun + silliness.
A loyal friend who cherised her friendships deeply.
A woman who was repested highly in her community + always gave her time.
A woman that will be deeply missed.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

At peace.

My mum is now at peace.

she passed away yesterday afternoon at home with dad, my brother, her sisters + her brother.
thanks from the bottom of my heart to everyone that has dropped me a email, a card, left a message on here, called or sent me PM's during mum's illness.
you will never know how much your kindness has meant to me during this sad time.
truly appreciated.
just want to share this lovely saying that someone sent me this morning.
"the passing of your mum is our earthly loss and a heavenly gain"
this is so true as my mum had the most amazing faith + I truly believe that is why she was so peaceful as she came to the end of her life.
fly free mum + I miss you so much.
love me

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Turing 6!!

Big day in our house today as Ruby is celebrating her 6th birthday!!
She has being so excited for days + playing how many sleeps!!
So my baby girl is 6 - where did that year go!!??

Happy Birthday Ruby!!
may the sun shine down on you
may you find lots of rainbows at the end of your dreams
may you always have that special caring nature
may you always be a loyal friend
may you always make our hearts shine
always be you
happy happy you
love you always our scooby do!!

she was thrilled to find a pink CD palyer in her pressies this morinng!!
that made her heart sing, along with the Hannah Montana CD from my parents.

already jamming to it in her bedroom (which by the way made her miss the bus this morning)!! ;)

I have being away spending some special times with my mum without the kids.

she is very peaceful now + has no pain due to the meds. She has the hospice in everyday.

What amazing ppl they are + ever so helpful.

I was so glad I drove down on mothers day to spend time with her. We talked alot inbetween her falling asleep alot. I massaged her hands + feet. We basically just hung out + it was special time for us.

Her time is coming to a end but we don't know when + I value each time I get to see her or talk to her on the phone. Most of her days are spent all day in bed but she is comfortable + without pain - which is what we want.

today is slightly tinged with sadness as i know that she would be here for Ruby's birthday + helping me get all the party food ready etc.

how precious + special are our mums.

hopefully soon I might have some scrappyness to share.

mojo is coming back I know it!! :)

ok I've got a birthday dinner to cook now requested by Ruby!! :)